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The Full-Time Training in Anaheim: A Place to Contact God, D.R.

The Lord has been faithful to His purpose in calling me out of the world to follow Him in a living way. He loves and reminds me that without Him life is empty and vain. I had consecrated to one day attend the training, but different distractions and difficult circumstances happened that caused me to feel that perhaps the Full-Time-Training in Anaheim (FTTA) wasn't meant for me. Before coming to the FTTA my heart was anxious with fears and questions. This caused me to turn to the Lord and ask, “What am I doing here? Lord, maybe it will be too much for me. Will I ever measure up to the other trainees?” I thought perhaps the people that are allowed to attend the training are extra special and have some quality that I don't possess. Through the Lord's mercy I simply prayed, “Lord, I have a little strength and I am very weak. If this is where I belong then show me. Give me peace and rest, let me hide in You.”

During the initial weeks of my first term in the training, the Lord answered many questions and calmed some fears. The training schedule is intense, and the environment is strict. I thought, “Lord, how can I do this?” Then as the weeks progressed and as the brothers shared, the Lord shined on my heart--“you can't do this but I can! I will move through you and work Myself into you to be your heavenly supply.” I realize now that every part of the training is for one goal--that I would contact God in my spirit, not merely develop a good character and honorable qualities, but learn to open myself to the Lord and allow Him to grow in me (2 Corinthians 3:18). I'm here to know how to contact God, to cultivate a living, intimate fellowship with Him. I realize that every minute in the training counts. The schedule and environment are designed specifically, in every minute detail, to help me seek and fellowship with the Lord.

I also learned that the other trainees are normal people like me. I learned that all of us here in the training are before the Lord seeking His will on earth for and through the fellowship with the Body. We are all here just to open up and cooperate with Him.

I'm relieved to realize that when my human endeavoring ends, Christ is my source and supply. I feel privileged to join my brothers and sisters as we “pursue toward the goal for the prize to which God in Christ Jesus has called [us] upward” (Philippians 3:14).

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